Really? I know you are quite surprised that I could possibly make the same mistake, again. Well, I'm not, for goodness' sake! I don't intentionally set out to screw things up, I'm gifted, and trust me it doesn't take much! How many times have you promised yourself you'd never let that hurt ever happen again, or that you'd never be taken by surprise the next time? Me? I say that every time I experience heart ache, surprise, disappointment and keep adding to the list. You get my drift!
Well that's just dumb thinking on my part. No, I'm not being hard on myself, it's just a reality check that sometimes I have to take myself through to remember that that is exactly who I am, and that's a good thing! I have been designed to love freely, give graciously and look for the good in all people and situations. Some may say that's naive, however, those are the same people that always have a frown on their faces, and trust me, I'm forty-something, and need nothing else to droop on my face!!
I used to get frustrated with myself each time I realized I had been "fooled" yet again. I couldn't understand what in tarnation was wrong with me that I could fall for the same old lines and be so blinded by the sun or the stars or whatever it was that blinded me to the outcome! For a long time I just thought I had zero idea how to judge character or know whether or not this person or that person would be out to bring hurt, harm, sadness or joy that would come with a price! Know what? Yay me!! I'm not supposed to sit in judgement. I'm not in control of anyone else's actions or motives, only mine.
It may sound simple minded and foolish to say that even though I've been dealt my share of disappointments, I'm just as ready to open my heart to the next person! No, not romantic stuff, well, not all of the time, but I mean to people who cross my path. I am designed to be me: loving, compassionate, adventurous, encouraging and yes, even stubborn!
How much you want to bet that it won't be long before I say, "Oops, I did it again!" I will hurt for a moment, may even cry a few tears, but I will pick myself back up and thank God for making me who I am and do it all over again!
Question: What mistakes do you make over and over?
Have a character building day!